1. “they must be the same rocks”

    1.

    and there is fishing with your dad
    and his beer and

    his cigarette
    he’s looking at you and
    you are just ten years old

    scar tissue that I wish you saw
    doo do doo do push-up bra

    you’re learning stoic nods
    and to work the reel 
    worm guts on your hand

    you can’t remember one time catching a fish
    but you remember cutting them, lengthwise

    2.

    and there is the ditch at the foot of the too-steep hill
    where you bled on the gravel

    do you wonder if those rocks are still there?
    if they’re the same rocks?

    do they still have
    little tiny pieces of your blood on them?
    they must right?
    like cold case files

    3.

    and there is that night drive with your best friend
    wow, there was a feeling in a car at night
    with your best friend

    and you were literally driving through the desert

    and you’re talking about
    the stars and love
    and the perpetual expansion of the universe
    wow, there was a feeling

    2 weeks ago  /  25 notes

  2. “every night at exactly 1:27 AM I wake up in front of my bathroom mirror and I’m just looking there and does this mean something where am I going”

    I know you hide things
    and I know where
    and I watch you trying 
    to love her
    and I watch you trying
    but we all know
    what goes on
    at night
    and her legs are
    pointing in all directions
    and absorbing everything
    with one pitiful exception
    and you are just hoping
    for a phone call 
    at night
    you are just pouring yourself
    into the shape of something
    that will fit

    3 months ago  /  29 notes

  3. “love, actually don’t cost a thing can’t buy me it”

    you’re not going to find 
    yourself in the woods
    you’re going to get poison ivy
    come inside
    let’s talk about this.  

    5 months ago  /  26 notes

  4. “I don’t want to be sad”

    I’m afraid I’ll never
    be good at anything
    and I can’t sleep because
    I hear people
    screaming at me
    and its so loud
    when my eyes are closed
    and I know that I’m not
    doing, okay?
    and I guess you’re the
    only one who knows that now
    I don’t know
    the words move
    on their own
    and I just watch
    I just watch and
    everything and
    everyone
    moves away
     

    7 months ago  /  30 notes

  5. “stop asking me for change I only have a debit card”

    the lady is just looking
    at me because I forgot
    the words to say 
    that help her do her job
    she is saying 
    how can I help you
    over and over 
    even though she doesn’t 
    want to
    she wanted to watch
    the movie that came on TV
    while she was getting dressed
    but I am just staring at her
    mouth move and hoping
    she takes the hint

    7 months ago  /  14 notes